still waiting for the rainbow…
why is he always in my thoughts i haven’t spoken to him since November and yet he’s still here.
i know hes nothing like he used to be but still, I’m still stuck its too pain full.. and why me?
i try to block it out most days but some days i allow the hole to open up again and eat me alive cuz that’s all i’ll have when hes gone the scars he left me. the pains he brought and all those beautiful memories to terrorize me every night that i lay my head time everytime i have a pack attack and force my self to go thru so i can sleep the rest of the night. im so sick of being miserable.